Me Without Sleep.

Yes, i have gotten used to the re-occurring problem of little sleep, but you would think that after awhile i would just grow used to constantly being a zombie.


Well, today was just one of those days where my lack of shut eye and waking up numerous times to the wandering of my mind happened to determine how my day would go...


6:35: My alarm goes off to get up for school. I presumed to hit the dismiss button and try and get 15 more minutes of sleep.



6:45: I crawl out of bed and make my way to my bright and colorful bathroom down the hall.



6:50-7:10ish: I beautify myself for school.



7:12: I must follow the school dress code, so i search my mess of a room for the clean school clothes i do have around.



7:17: Walking down the stairs and making my way to the kitchen, I finally get everything together for my "lovely" soon to be day at school.



Now here comes the favorite time of my day- Driving to school with loud music playing.

There is a part of me that feels extremely calm and tranquil when I'm listening to the songs i have playing on my iPod. The words, beats, voices- all ease me into my happy state, the one place of escape from the craziness and busyness of this hectic world.



Upon arriving at school, i pull myself together and mentally prepare for the 7 hour day ahead, and what wonders it will hold. Now here's where i went wrong in my thinking... Wonders that my day will hold. Little did i know that the day of April 29, 2010, would bring that feeling of brokenness and frustration and disappointment.



2nd hour. The time where it all began. My calculus test had slightly slipped my mind so i was cramming in the unfamiliar and confusing information that we had learned for the past couple of days. I needed all the help i could get for this test so i asked my fellow average calculus friends to help teach me the area underneath a curve. While doing so, someone sparked a talk and i began to indulge in the heated argument. One thing lead to another and i went insane. My tone of voice grew louder and i felt my body starting to tense up and get hot. Long story short, people don't quite understand certain things in my life and why i strongly dislike past situations i had been put in with sports. Some just don't see the whole story of it and assume certain things when they don't know the truth. Does that sound familiar in life?



3rd hour brought that dreaded calc test. I can tell you for a fact that i knew almost nothing that was displayed on that piece of paper. I tried my hardest, with every ounce of me, but i couldn't fight the tears and frustration that was building up inside of me. A few flowed out and i then wiped them away and took a deep breath. "It's just one test Michaela. Keep trying and you'll figure some things out. Don't worry." My mind can be so much stronger than me sometimes. If only i could carry that out in my actions and life...



Throughout the day, i started to mellow down and just relax. I looked at things and realized that there is so much more to life than stressing and worrying about the stupidest stuff. Life is a gift and so is everything else given to us.



From that perspective, i turned it around and went home to just chill. I went straight up and took a baby cat nap for about 15 minutes. I then woke up to the sound of my best friend's voice calling my name. Joyfulness and happiness filled me. Anytime i can see her or hang out with her just gives me more courage to live life to the fullest. We're completely alike and we have grown to love each other for our little flaws and quirks. We proceeded to relax and then later accompanied each other to youth group to learn and listen to what God had in store for us that night: the power of sex and how far is too far. (Sorry, but I'm not getting into this...)



One small thing can change the way your whole day can go. Like in my life, lack of sleep. But even though one small itty bitty problem like sleep seems so big to me, its honestly nothing i cant overcome.



So here's to you lack of sleep, for i will conquer you!